They say the first step to recovery is admitting you have a problem. I have a problem. And I am finally ready to admit it. I have been in an ongoing, unhealthy, relationship for years with alcohol. It allows me to relax, let go of my self doubt, insecurity, and gives me a confidence no other vice can...all under the disguise of being social. Meeting friends for a drink, going to a bar to have one glass, hanging out with friends for much needed laughs seems so much better over booze. However, as I look back over my life, I see there has been more harm than good done from you. The drama, the scheming, the plotting, the destroying of relationships, the fighting with friends and family, the promiscuity, the wasted, wasted, wasted time...years, YEARS of distraction from the pain. It's time to feel the pain. Alcohol, you are so attractive because you seem so wise. I spend hours and hours everyday on the weekends with you.
You make me feel important. Special. Popular. Liked. Connected. I realize I never get anything done when I am with you. We rendezvous for hours while never actually accomplishing anything when we are together. We just sit there. Watching. Talking. Wasting time. You have cost me precious limited moments with my work, my family, and my friends and I know we need to stop seeing each other. I have to end it.
So here goes…
Alcohol, we are done. I am breaking up with you.
Social media, you are getting new boundaries today. Boundaries that work to protect what is important to me and that contribute to making me a healthier person.
And Twitter, don’t feel bad – you are not the only one getting axed.
Self-doubt. We are done too.
Negative talk. I’ve had it with you.
Job that beats me up everyday and leaves me empty. I’m outta here. And no, we can’t still be friends.
Best Friend that puts me down, texts mean things and requires that I carry your burden without you carrying mine. I can’t see you anymore.
Food that promises comfort but only leaves me with extreme feelings of guilt. It’s not you, it’s me.
I am not sure what the future looks like without you in it the same way you’ve been in the past.
But I know what I look like.
And in case you are wondering, yes, there is someone else. Several others actually…
His name is The Gym. His name is Volunteering. His name is Making A Difference In Someone’s Life. His name is Writing. His name is Being Fully Present.
Today, I am making the conscious decision to move away from things that drain me of joy and time and authenticity and towards things that give me life. Join me?
What is YOUR unhealthy relationship? What do you need to breakup with today? What will continue to suck the life out of you if you let it? Let me know in the comment section below! We can celebrate our breakups together.