I have spent my entire life never being satisfied. No matter how well I am doing in life, I have always found a way or another reason to keep looking for more. No. Matter. What. While I have been able to achieve plenty of goals in my time – attending my dream college, getting my dream job, dating my dream guy, buying my dream car, and on and on, I still never feel satisfied. I am the type of person that is always, constantly, consistently, striving for “what’s next” – and my friends and family have never understood why.
As a little girl, I remember my Mom asking me why I wasn’t satisfied with all the things I had around me – great clothes, great friends, great grades. She didn’t understand why that wasn’t enough for me. Why couldn’t I be happy with my life as it was – safe and secure in middle class suburbia – WHY? But it wasn’t, and it still isn’t, enough.
For years, I always thought that meant that there was something wrong with me. I thought it meant that there was something about my personality or my mind that didn’t work – why wasn’t what I had enough for me? I would lie in bed, crying, night after night, trying to feel satisfied with where I was. It would work for a while, for a week or so I would feel amazing and calm, just going with the flow. Then it would creep in again. Slowly at first, but then, over time, I would start to sense that feeling – the undeniable, indescribable feeling of not being satisfied. Surprisingly, sometimes the feeling of being unsatisfied would come to me right after I achieved a big goal!
Here’s what I would say to you. If you have this same feeling day after day, night after night, don’t give up. Don’t question it. You know what that feeling is? That is ambition. That is striving for your goals. That is having goals while others don’t. You have what others don’t have.
So, I say, don’t be satisfied. You feel joy in your life when you are working towards your potential. One goal is reached, then the next, then the next one is even bigger than that one, and then the next, and then the next. Satisfaction leads to mediocrity. You aren’t mediocre. Keep that hunger, that drive, that desire alive.
I say stay unsatisfied. Not being satisfied means you have more to accomplish in your life. And you do. Putting pressure on yourself will force you to tap resources you have had dormant in yourself for too long. So I say, push yourself! See what you can do!
Never. Be. Satisfied.